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Lex Sabre and Shane Frost on Extra Big Dick

2009-12-03T07:38:21Z

So my scene with Shane Frost just posted on ExtraBigDick.com. There will be more to come regarding this scene via blog. We had a rockin time fliming this scene! Shane was awesome to work with and I would def. work with him again I think our sexual chemistry was amazing. Much love to Shane Frost I miss ya bud!! xoxo

Hope you all enjoy the scene if you guys become a memeber for extrabigdicks.com

Lex Sabre's Daddy's has RETURNED!!!

2009-11-29T23:37:31Z

So I know its been a while for a blog or something of good interest to read or look at so yes the Lex Sabre Daddy Momment has returned. As most of you know the Daddys are those who are in the Porn Industry... Well this one will not be. It Christopher Meloni from Law and Order SVU BOOOOMMMM! He's hot and can we say hes not to shy to show the goods on tv (OZ) This man is packing like no ones buisness!! Enjoy what you all see!
Much Luv here
Lex Sabr xoxo

Hold Your Hands Up

2009-11-28T09:03:31Z

Do you ever miss me?
Do you ever miss me?

Shine your light down just to let me know
Release the worry in my soul
Tell me secrets that I know you know
Come back home

Give me the answers to those questions I

Asked before we blew away
'Cause when you move you're like a butterfly
Flown away

But I've got no tears left for you
I held on and I hope you come through, I do

Hold your hands up
I miss you, I miss you tonight
Hold your hands up

I'll find you when I look inside
Hold your hands up
I miss you, I miss you tonight

Remember all the things we used to say
In the hope that we'd remain
It's all forgiven not forgotten boy
It's not too late

But I've got no tears left for you
I held on and I hope you come through, I do

Hold your hands up
I miss you, I miss you tonight
Hold your hands up
I'll find you when I look inside
Hold your hands up
I miss you, I miss you tonight
I'm alive

When I'll look for you
I hope you'll look into your heart
And you'll know what you missed
It's not a lot to ask
Just stay and make it last
Now all I am asking is this
Do you ever miss me?

Hold your hands up

I miss you, I miss you tonight
Hold your hands up

I'll find you when I look inside
Hold your hands up
I held on and I hope you come through

Hold your hands up
I miss you, I miss you tonight
Hold your hands up

I'll find you when I look inside
Hold your hands up
I miss you, I miss you tonight

I'll find you when I look inside

Hold your hands up

Hold your hands up

Do you ever miss me?

"Everytime I hear your name"

2009-11-17T16:25:33Z

When you walked away from me
And said your last goodbye
I never thought that six months on
You'd still be in my life

I have tried to forget
Get you out of my head
But the memories won't fade
I can run I can hide from this feeling inside
But the pain won't go away

Cause every time I hear your name
The world stops for a moment
Baby with a single word
I can see your face again

Cause every time I hear your name
The world stops for a moment
And I'm taken back to what we had
Every time I hear your name

Now I'm sure you've found a girl
To fill my empty space
But I'm stuck with the love that we shared
That time just can't erase

I can run I can hide from this feeling inside
But the pain won't go away

Cause every time I hear your name
The world stops for a moment
Baby with a single word
I can see your face again

Cause every time I hear your name
The world stops for a moment
And I'm taken back to what we had
Every time I hear your name

And I'm taken back to what we had
Every time I hear your name

I LOVE THIS SONG!! SO HOT!!!

2009-10-24T03:36:58Z

HOLLLARRRRRRRRRRR!!

DIRTY YOUNG BUCKS

2009-10-07T01:47:41Z

TO BE RELEASED ON OCTOBER 13TH!

COCKTAILS WITH THE STARS!! 5/7/09 @ MICKYS!

2009-05-06T17:45:27Z

HEY EVERYONE PLEASE COME JOIN SCOTTY B AND ANGEL BENTON AT MICKYS TOMORROW NITE! AT 6PM FOR COCKTAILS WITH THE STARS!!! I MAY BE THERE IF YOUR LUCKY ;) LOL MANY PORN STARS MAY BE THERE COME JOIN THE FUN AND THE DRINKS THE GO GO DANCERS AND THE BARTENDERS OF COURSE!!! MY FAV IS KIETH!!!! HES FUCKING AWESOME!!

MUCH LOVE LEX SABRE XOXO

JAI HO! (You are my Destiny) PUSSYCAT DOLLS!

2009-03-21T19:23:19Z

FINALLY I SIT DOWN AND BLOG!!

2009-03-21T18:46:28Z

OK I know I've said it before and I'll say it again I am soooo sorry that I am not up to speed with my blog. So enough of the same ole story and game right. Anyhow so hows everyone out there hope all is well a lot has happend since the last two months!! I am doing well as well as can be expected work has been crazy for me and hitting the gym as often as I can so I can look even hotter LOL. I thinK it was like almost two months ago when I was asked out on a date for dinner by this guy that met me in Long Beach at BoysRoom. So let me tell you about that. We chatted a few times via text message seemed like a cool guy. Anyhow we met up in Huntington Beach for dinner at some great Italian place. The conversation flowed and I did bring up the fact that I am not looking to date anyone right now since i was just recently hurt. He was cool with it. There was no awkward moments with him at all. Like I said the conversation flowed well enough! Even a friend of mine state it may look like I'll have Valetines date for the V-Day. I just laughed and said we'll see LOL

So I ended up asking my dear friend Kris out on date V-Day date. Totally as friends. What better person than Kris. He's hot, funny guy, sweet and more important a great friend of mine! Kris said yes and gave me a hug and a kiss. You all know Kris right lol he is well known in the WEHO and no not like that Ya Nastys!! Just like two years ago Andy Kirra and I went on a V-Day date it was awesome and we got drunk LOL. But this time I didn't get drunk that night. Kris and I hit up St. Felix and some food and a drink. I was all decked out; slacks, button down shirt with a tie and my heels I mean lol dress shoes...wait no I dont LOL or maybe I do. Kris was impressed that I was all clean cut and that I look really handsome awwwww lol That nigth was great! We where at super cherry pop and Kyler Coy was with me that night.

So since my heart was broken ( I know i sound dramatic) I decided to come back into the Porn buisness. I know its been a while since I filmed anything for that matter but hey I figured might as well go back to it again! So I had been contacted by Jeremy Hall from Clubjeremyhall.com I did three scenes for him I had fun! It was good to see him again it had been a long while since I seen him. I ended up working for this new site that just started so its kinda like broke straight boys but i guess its called Brokeassboys or something like that but it wasn't bad at all. I worked with Brodie Newport. As you know also I came back to Live and Raw and with Josh Hart. Now let me tell you about that! It has been almost 2 years since I did a live and raw none the less a Duo for the site! I was kinda nervous becasue 1. its been a while, 2. I think Josh Hart is cute! 3. I have a huge crush on him *blush. Are you kidding me i was blushing when he walked in the studio. The show went well! We had really good chemistry and boy can he kiss!! It was hot and bothered lol we had to take a break lol cause it was HOT!

Josh was nervous himself cause of my "size". I swear people think I am soooo big but I am not lol. Anyhow the penetration scene went well. He took it like a pro lol but he was like wow I felt the gurth of your dick and just started laughing. We jacked off for our money shot for the end of the live and raw. It felt good to be back again so to speak and I hope to do another live and raw again soon after all I was the king of live and raw lol lol ;)

So... its been about good almost over 2 months now regarding my "Break up" I don't know how to describe it but after 2 months or so I had a run in with the boy. The firs time it was a glance and distance but that was it. The 2nd time I had walked into HERE on a Sunday night and there he was there again and out of habbit I nodded and acknowledge his presence. Later that night I had run into his friend and we were chatting a bit and he ended up walking up to us and mind you I was not to happy about that but you know whatever right... I didn't acknowledge him none the less make eye contact with him or whatever really. I said my peace with his friend and I walked away. With in 15 minute we left HERE Lounge. So thats my "drama" lol so to speak. Like I said before Im just living life day by day back in the gym again since I was out of commission last week cause of a cold.

So I hope to come back at some full force in the Industry I know times are tough but I'll do what I can in order for me Lex Sabre to make his comeback!! We'll see. As for me dating Im not sure I am not opposed to it but at the same time I need to be cautious. I would be down to date Josh Hart but we'll see if he is interested in that way. Why not hes cute, funny, sweet and overall a great guy! What else am I missing here to tell you about lol I think I pretty much summed it up here with in the last two months! Next weekend is my Birthday and also the GAYVN AWARDS! So Ill be in San Francisco so if you see me around come say hi! I'll be with my buddy Josh Griffin! Don't be afraid say hi lol. Can't wait till next weekend I think I will be a big mess or a "S.A.M" LOL

TAKE CARE ALL!
MUCH LOVE
LEX SABRE XOXO

JEFF DUNHAM! HE'S SOOO FUNNY!

2009-03-21T17:50:26Z

LONG AWAITED LIVE AND RAW!!

2009-03-10T02:54:31Z

HEY GUYS JUST WANTED T LET YOU KNOW WEDNESDAY MARCH 11TH AT 6PM PST LIVE AND RAW DUO WITH JOSH HART!! ITS BEEN OVER A YEAR SINCE IVE DONE A LIVE AND RAW AND IM EXCITED AND I HOPE ALL OF YOU OUT THERE ARE MEMBERS FOR LIVE AND RAW AND WATCH THE SHOW!!

Update!

2009-02-01T17:49:45Z

Wow.. has it been 3 weeks or so since I was all dramatic or melodramtic ;) I just wanted to blog today and give you an update and thank those who did read my blog and where concern for me regarding my dating or what I thought was going to be a dating situation. Like I said I am doing a lot better not to say I am fully healed but I am living my life day by day and making sure I do not feel sorry for myself or think about what happened. Well... at least I try not to that is lol I'm human I'm allowed to have my moments.If you all must know if I have ran into him I have not. Not hat I have made sure of it I guess I have just been lucky not to run into him. But I must say I could have actually. Just last Monday my good friend told me he was having a birthday cocktail gathering for his best friend a Drag Queen who won the WEHO Award! anyhow but ya I thought about going but I was so exhausted Monday evening that I did not have energy to drive to West Hollywood ok enough of the details.

Josh Griffin had sent me a instant message later that evening/night letting me know he was there at our friends place for the gathering and I thought to myself wow its a good thing I didn't go. Not that I was going to cause a scene but I would have said my peace to my friends and walked out. Now most of you are probably thinking Im letting this guy win if I show up and hes there. In reality I am not I just need to see him and have a breakdown but anyhow enough of that. Josh Griffin informed me that the boy was acting oh.... I bit akward which I found interesting. But I figured it out. But I wont go all Dr. Phil on you but Im sure you all can figure it out regarding as to Josh senseing the awkardness... like phermones lol.

So Wednesday night comes around and I figured well I guess I could go out tonite... So I called up my good friend Kyler Coy to join me cause apparently the night before Scotty Boardman informed that it was Blake Rileys B-day party at St. Felix not to mention I was gonna stop by Numbers as well to see how Josh's and Jason's night is going! So as I was drving up PR from CC1R Andrew Moore called me to see where in sam hell I was lol. Anyhow I get to WEHO and we walk to St. Felix and we said Happy Birthday to Blake and we saw Chi Chi there who by the way looks fab!!!! and also saw Collin O'Neal HMMHMMMM! ;) Andy and had two cocktails there before he ended up going home and Kyler and I end up going to Numbers with Jeremy Bilding who stop by St. Felix! Love him!! He is such a great guy to hang out with!!

So we stop by at Numbers looks like it was a happening place when we got there. Chi Chi and Collin and been there as well. I end up seeing Tory Mason, Mario Cruz, Beau Marcos and Josh Hart now how cute is he. Josh Hart is CockyBoy exclusive new I would say. He remembered when we last met which was about 2 weeks ago or so. At one point of the night I ened up following him towards the back where the restrooms are at. We where chatting for a bit and then he was like so did you follow me back here cause of you wanted some of this and he pulled me in and we started making out! And i was like OH SNAP! This boy was good! You all know how I am with my kissing lol!! We made out for a bit and stopped didnt want to get caught just yet or have the gay gossip start: Whats this Lex Sabre and Josh Hart... Its like really you make out with someone and there goes the neighborhood. So at one point of the night I did ask Josh if he would like to hang out sometime with no expectations. He said he is cool with that.

Mind you we made Josh Griffin put ona Happy Birthday Prince Hat on from Blake and had T-Ball take a photo of it LOL I love it. That was Blakes wish for his b-day! LOL So Kyler and I left Numbers and walked to HERE. Grab another drink and we just hung out for a bit. Ran into Thiago just the cutest Brazlian I have ever met :) and saw hot dancer Kris (as I like to call him) you know him as Josh Griffins ex-b/f. Kyler and I ran into Phillip Ashton and OMG that boy can just scream like no ones business when he sees me LOL its like: *screams high pitch and yells out OMG its Lex Sabre and puts his head down as if he flips his hair and puts in a bun... well you have to just watch it in real life see what I mean when he does this!! LOL

I swear the phermones where just flowing for me this week cause as I went to BoysRoom this friday I had some Daddy cop guy... yes a daddy and a cop how hot is that! all over me he was a friend of a guy I dance with in Weho and MJs. Apparently his name is John and he loves the latins lol go figure and I do like the white guys go figure there... imagine that ;) lol but then of course why does there have to be a one of those messes that decided to try to speak to you but you can understand messy, drunk tragric hot mess... well you get my point. Anyhow to spare you the details at one point this fucker decided to twist my nipple and thats no no in my book. I told him to stop then out of nowhere he does it again about 10 min later and grab his fingers bent them back and said if you do not that one more time I will make sure your fingers are broken and I know for sure Ill be kicked out of this club! pushed him away and continued on. His friend came up to me (mind you the friend was a bit cute)and apologized for his friend. So right at last call the guy who said sorry for his friend; his name is Shawn boldly says so am I going to get your number. I was like OH SNAP! Now that was ballsy ;) and very cute at the same time. I said sure. He seemed liked a cool guy and he was not drunk lol. As for the Cop Daddy guy I lost him at one point but he was on the prowl like he wanted to take me home so I can do him cause he asked if I was a top or bottom LOL.

I think thats pretty much it on my update! No photos but I did write does that count a bit. It was great week and even though I only wen to the gym like once that week I still felt good about myself after those incidents with those guys! :) I went to the gym finally yesterday and now I am about to go I dont want to start the pattern when I dont go and I say I'll go the next day then I dont... Hell No! Ive been doing well not gonna stop now! OK thats my vent for the day.

Much Love guys!!
Lex Sabre xoxo

P.S.Can I be gay for like a few seconds. So Thursday morning I was getting ready for work and David Archuletas new song came on VH-1 and... well I liked it I know I know I know GAY!!!
But in way it hits home ish of what happened to me but hey Im sure we all have been there before! Don't Judge me!!! Just listen to the song or look up the lyrics!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Sx0Vetq1sb4

OMG I'M GOING TO HELL CAUSE I LAUGHED!

2009-01-30T02:50:49Z

YA.... SO I COULD NOT STOP LAUGHING YIKES!! I DO HOPE SHES OK (AS I KEEP LAUGHING)
LEX SABRE XOXO

YES DANCE!!!!!

2009-01-27T03:40:38Z

Need I say more... These guys are fucking hillarious!

My Anthem!!

2009-01-22T04:20:28Z

So I guess I found my anthem regarding my situation. You would think that I would probably have "So What" as my song... but nope I actually found this song although its an oldy but it was covered by New Found Glory but orginally by Go West. I'm going to post both vids/songs. So ya this is my anthem and as the song goes: "I'll get over you I know I will" ;)
Much love guys!
Lex Sabre xoxo
P.S. I added the lyrics as well :)

I don't need to fall at your feet
Just 'cause you cut me to the bone
And I won't miss the way that you kiss me
We were never carved in stone
If I don't listen to the talk of the town
Then maybe I can fool myself...

I'll get over you... I know I will
I'll pretend my ship's not sinking
And I'll tell myself I'm over you
'Cause I'm the king of wishful thinking
I am the king of wishful thinking

I refuse to give in to my blues
That's not how it's going to be
And I deny the tears in my eyes
I don't want to let you see... no
That you have made a hole in my heart
And now I've got to fool myself...

I'll get over you... I know I will
I'll pretend my ship's not sinking
And I'll tell myself I'm over you
'Cause I'm the king of wishful thinking...
I'll get over you... I know I will
I'll pretend my ship's not sinking
And I'll tell myself I'm over you
'Cause I'm the king of wishful thinking

I will never, never shed a tear for you
I'll get over you

If I don't listen to the talk of the town
Then maybe I can fool myself...

I'll get over you... I know I will
I'll pretend my ship's not sinking
And I'll tell myself I'm over you
'Cause I'm the king of wishful thinking
I'm the king of wishful thinking
I'll get over you... I know I will
You made a hole in my heart
But I won't shed a tear for you
I'll be the king of wishful thinking
I'll get over you...
I'll pretend my heart's still beating
'Cause I've got no more tears for you
I'm the king of wishful thinking...
I'll get over you... I know I will
You made a hole in my heart
And I'll tell myself I'm over you
'Cause I'm the king of wishful thinking

I DON'T KNOW IF I SHOULD STAY

2009-01-19T02:08:12Z

Where's my will
Can I find a way
The earth is wild
And I can't sit still
A familiar sound
A familiar voice
Makes it so hard to make a choice
I don't know if I should stay
A thousand stops
You will have my word
I'm bright enough to fill these cracks
A familiar place
A familiar voice
Makes it so hard to make a choice
I don't know if I should stay
I ran to you like water
I threw my body in
And I'll stand up on the ocean
Just to show you that I'm strong
What if I am wrong
A familar look
A familiar smile
Makes it so hard to make a choice
I don't know if I should stay....
Away

My first Kiss, Hurt, Lies and Misleading words

2009-01-19T01:44:06Z

WOW… guys can you believe it the year 2009 HAPPY LATE NEW YEARS TO ALL OF YOU!! You are all wondering why the melodramatic songs on the blog and in case some of you guessed it… yes I was hurt (DUH) where to begin right. Let’s start off with New Years Eve. I was scheduled to work/dance at MJs that night. I was totally stoked because it was New Years and ready to rock the New Year… Ok so that day started off really well I went to the gym and just a productive day. I ended up staying with Josh Griffin the night before since I also worked at MJs that night. What I was really excited for that day or more night was that I was hoping to get my first ever in my life new year’s kiss. I mean an actual kiss from someone I liked, cared about and not a random drunk stranger. As most of you didn’t know I had dated someone a few months back then we stopped because well it seemed like we were just friends. Though recently or more like a month ago I ended up asking him if we could try again. I had a reality check regarding us. Basically I realized its ok to let him in my heart. I had walled myself off for 3 years and now it was time to open up again. He said he had to think about it. Within a week we got together for dinner and he gave me his answer. Well he said we couldn’t try again right now, or at this time. He said he needed to work on himself. He also said that when we dated he felt insecure and did not like the way how he felt about that. I had to remind him that he knew what came with the package that I was Lex Sabre and also danced but he didn’t meet him as Lex mind you. So we left at that. We did tell each other that we were attracted to each other and still liked each other.
So regardless that was the outcome we would still hang out and be friends but…. We also acted like we didn’t stop seeing each other. We would have affection towards each other for example we would kiss each other not a peck but actual kissing, hug that would turn into holding each other and silly groping of the lower region. Anyhow so back to New Years where he ended up coming to MJs. I was standing by the platform with the chains (if you all been to MJs that is you know what I’m talking about). At countdown I hopped down and as soon as it hit 3, 2, 1 and every one screamed HAPPY NEW YEARS!! I looked up at him leaned in and kissed him as the ball dropped for 2009. It was sooooo special well to me that is since this was my first kiss on New Years. As I was kissing him I almost started crying (I know how sappy) and stopped at one point and wish him a Happy New Year and then we continued to kiss. The rest of the night was just amazing and awesome! I was having so much fun and I stayed sober… yes I said sober (most of you are probably shocked).
So back to the songs that I have posted on here… Here is the story just about a week ago I had gone to MJs and saw him there talking to a friend of mine. At one point of the night he told he started seeing someone for about a week now. I was surprised and thrown off guard. I didn’t know what to say. We ended up walking out at the same time leaving. As we approached our cars he noticed that something was wrong. I responded that nothing was wrong and I was tired. Now mind you as I was walking away I knew that was not the way to deal with this news. So I stopped in mid-track and said: “No I’m lying it bothers me”. So we attempted to talk about it then and there. I told him from what I could say at that time cause I could not speak and I was about to break down. I asked him about what we talked about last month about him working on himself and at this time we couldn’t date because you needed to work on himself. Our interactions with each other with affection, kissing etc. I told him I was holding on to what I thought we had a chance for the near future. I told him I feel like a fool that I can’t believe that I held on like an idiot like a jack ass. Knowing better not to hold on. He said he was sorry that he didn’t mean to hurt me and did not mean to give me a sense of false hope. He told me that he valued our friendship and he cares about me. He has the nerve to tell me: “I still want to be your friend and you don’t I would understand”. What he meant about his words was that he and I was not going to occur in the near future period. He also had the nerve to say: “How about you call me when you are ready” I don’t want to be the catalyst” Seriously did he just use the word “catalyst” and I’m like JEWISH BOY SAY WHAT! I’m thinking are you singing New Found Glory or something and if that was not verbal aggression I don’t know what was!
Before he could get into his car I peeled out in mine with watery eyes. I felt played, fooled and I was soooo damn hurt about this. Again the songs are so melodramatic and I know that this blog shouldn’t be on here but I don’t care. I called him the following evening and he returned my phone call that night. I know talking to him on the phone is not the best way to deal and say what I needed to say but why drag it out all week to see him, waste gas just to let know other things that I needed to say that I did not say that night. So basically I told him that he truly hurt me, lied to me, played me and lead me on. I brought up our affection towards each other and how that kept on leading me to think that we were going to have something in the future. He would respond back by kissing me like nothing. Also that since he has been seeing this guy for a week now leads me to believe that this guy has been on the back burner. I mentioned that our kisses and especially the New year’s kiss was just bogus now to me and does he have any idea how special that was for me. I told him that I walled myself for 3 years but he knew that already and I finally let him in. I didn’t think I would ever like another guy or more like I did 3 years ago. He told me he should have been clear about what he said. He also said is that he is not the type of person to say “you and I are not going to happen period” if that makes sense. If you can’t say that then why use words such as at this time we can’t or not right now. It would be deceiving. He said also said he should have stopped me kissing him and it’s like he didn’t either start as well but he didn’t. I asked why he didn’t. He said: “Because I was vulnerable” like I wasn’t vulnerable either come on! At one point of our conversation he asked if that’s all that needed to be said and I’m like wow you sure want to get of this phone conversation quickly. He said that that it was uncomfortable. At that point I called him on out that he was making himself uncomfortable not me! He said that he did not lie to me, and he meant what he said that he cares about me and everything was sincere. I asked him if he still had feelings for me in which he said that not as strong now since he first met me. He said that he just met this guy right after New Years. Which doesn’t make me feel any better at this time? I brought up the fact that when he told me that he needed to work on himself and that we could not date at this time that lead me to believe he was not going to be dating anyone else. I dragged this conversation long enough with him and I told him I have one thing to apologize for which was that I was sorry for pushing him away when we first met. I said I thank God that I met him and he was such an impact in my life in which he was in part of me shying away from the Porn Industry. I told him that I care about him, I still like him and it will take time to get over him. But to answer his question… I said: “I’m sorry I can’t be your friend” I do not want to see you, look at you, talk with you or interact with you period I do not want you in my life”. He said that if he does see me he will make sure to say hello and I would make sure to walk away. With that he said well I hope one day we get to talk. I couldn’t answer that but I did with the first thing that came to mind which was….”I doubt it”. I don’t hate him, or wish bad will or anything else. I am deeply hurt and you know I didn’t ask why we couldn’t try again or why wouldn’t he want to take the risk but oh well what is done is done. As of right now what I have learned was that… you need to be clear with your words or else you will end up getting hurt. What I am going to do is work on myself. By that I mean physically, mentally, emotionally and spiritually. I have been hitting the gym for the last almost 3 weeks hard nonstop I think I have missed about 3 times within the last few weeks. I don’t see myself wanting to date for quite some time but at the same time I am not going to wall myself off again life is too short so I don’t see the need to do so.
I wish I could take credit for all the songs posted on here except PCD I don’t need a man lol that I wrote those songs but I didn’t’ but it was how I felt and able to understand and relate to the lyrics and message of the song to what I just went through. I will admit… I miss him, miss his voice, miss kissing him and miss his smell and miss holding him and I miss looking at his eyes… but what is so funny is that… When I look in his eyes, I don't see mine. So that’s my story as much as I made it so dramatic or melodramatic I’m ok with that I said what I need to say and I speak my mind. Take Care all of you!
Much Love
Lex Sabre xoxo

"BE A MAN"

2009-01-16T02:16:03Z

Im sure you can probably really guess where Im going with this one. Seriously... is there anyone out there whos of a male gender that has the fucking balls to really be honest and say what really needs to be said. Not say what they think is clear in their aspect but on your end you understand the opposite way of it. If that makes any sense.

"Be A Man"

The world is quiet,
like there is no one around,
but I feel you beside me
I know the secrets,
you keep locked away inside
Don't understand why you're fighting

I know he must be special,
this new boy by your side
I seek for answers when I look into your eyes,
And it hurts like hell but, I will be strong

For once in your life, be a man
Just tell me the words, 'cause I know that you can
Don't leave me with scars that no one can heal
For once in your life - be a man

You made me love you,
love you right from the start
You're controlling my heart, babe
Don't pack your bags yet
Give me time to say goodbye (Say goodbye)
Just don't leave me wounded

No, I just hope you will regret the things you do
Come back to me,
'cause our love is the real thing
And it hurts like hell, but I will be strong..

For once in your life, be a man
Just tell me the words, 'cause I know that you can
Don't leave me with scars that no one can heal
For once in your life - be a man

I knew that I,
I fought to keep our love strong
If you leave me now,
you come running back for more, babe
And I hope for, and I wish for,
and I pray, that the words from your mouth can,
eventually make you a man...

For once in your life,
be a man...
When everything stops -

for a minute in your life,
I'll hope that,
for once in your life, be a man
(be a man)
Just tell me the words, 'cause I know that you can,
Don't leave me with scars,
that no one can heal

For once in your life - be a man
Be a man...
Tell me the words...

Once in your life...
Be a man...
Tell me the words...

"GOODBYE"

2009-01-16T02:08:08Z

So as melowdramatic as I am being regarding my situation in which has been 2 days and I am doing a lot better I figured I would post songs that relate to what happened to me. Most of you are probably wondering what this is or have guessed and rest asure you will be seeing a blog regarding it. Heres "Goodbye" Im sure you'll like it... or not but it fits the situation right now... Much Love
Lex Sabre

"GOODBYE"

Deep in the heart of every man
Lies a hidden dream or plan
To be a milloinaire
Life without a care

Hey cool cat
Does this apply to you?
Don't you lie
'Cause you can't hide the truth

I can see what's behind those eyes
Tongue so twisted from tellin' lies
You might think you're strong
But you better not treat me wrong
Or else I'll say so long

Goodbye
I never want to see you again
Goodbye
I don't want to be your friend
So long
Now we've reached the end
Time for me to turn that bend
When time has run away
And there's no need for me to stay
And lose myself to you
And be abused by you
I don't need the pain
From your mind games
When you try them again
I won't be there for them to work
Anymore

Now you're back
And you're beggin' please
Crawling on your hands and knees
You thought you were a star
But now here you are
You haven't traveled far

I DON'T NEED A MAN!!

2009-01-14T02:43:21Z

DO I REALLY NEED TO SAY MORE! I THINK THIS (LOOK BELOW) SAYS IT ALL!!!

"SKIN"

2009-01-12T20:14:06Z

This is a side that most of you have seen from me and some of you have not... the serious side, the emotional side. I may do porn and am considered a porn star but I do have feelings and emotions... Although the situation that I went through shouldn't be as dramatic as I am making it out to seem... I truely feel that I was hurt.. Not heart broken but the heart don't lie... you still feel a bit heart broken in some way.
Much love guys
Lex Sabre xoxo

"Skin"

I drift away to a place
Another kind of life
Take away the pain
I create my paradise

Everything I've held
Has hit the wall
What used to be yours
Isn't yours at all

Falling apart, and all that I'm asking
Is it a crime, am I overreacting

Oh, he's under my skin
Just give me something to get rid of him
I've got a reason now to bury this alive
Another little white lie

So what you had didn't fit
Among the pretty things
Never fear, never fear
I now know where you've been

Braids have been un-tied
As ribbons fall away
Leave the consequence
But my tears you'll taste

Falling apart and all that I question
Is this a dream or is this my lesson

Oh, he's under my skin
Just give me something to get rid of him
I've got a reason now to bury this alive
Another little white lie

I don't believe I'll be alright
I don't believe I'll be OK
I don't believe how you've thrown me away
I do believe you didn't try
I do blame you for every lie
When I look in your eyes, I don't see mine

Oh, he's under my skin
Just give me something to get rid of him
I've got a reason now to bury this alive
Another little white lie

Oh my permission to sin
You might have started my reckoning
I've got a reason now to bury him alive
Another little white lie

LIES

2009-01-12T08:49:20Z

I think the title and words say enough I don't need to explain or briefly blog or tell anything. This is all that you all need to know.
Lex Sabre xoxo

Lies, to deceive
Tellin' lies, tellin' lies
I can't believe
Lies, to deceive
So many lies, so many lies
Why do we believe

I've done wrong
I've listened to the wrong advice
I saw something in you once
Now I see it ain't so nice
Trouble is, I believed in you
I was the one who was being fooled
But I won't let it be the same
I won't fall back into your little game of

Lies, that deceive
Your little lies, your little lies
I can't believe
Lies, won't retrieve
The love you lost, the love you lost
When you lost me

You filled my head with untruth
Made me believe that you were you
Fed me lines of make-believe
But this time it's you who'll see

Your lies, won't retrieve
The love you lost, the love you lost
When you lost me

When the situation occurred
You quickly hid behind your words
I opened up my eyes
And soon I realized
That it's too late, my love has turned to hate
And there's nothing left for you
And your lies
Why do we believe

In The End

2008-12-29T17:25:38Z

So... I came across this song on youtube cause you all know how much I love to be on Youtube LOL. The song is "In the End" by Kat DeLuna; you know the one that sang "Whine Up" last summer and it was a sensational hit all through the summer and till this day... well for me that is so yes back to her song "In the End". I really liked the sound but then I started to listen to the lyrics and wow crazy how in some form I understood what the song was talking about. I felt like this song was for me... or something like that... LOL But yes I feel that I have been in the situation the song is talking about... have you? You have to listen to the lyrics to understand especially for some of us that can't keep a relationship when you know you go the right one in front of you... In the end you know it was for you ;) and sometimes it can be too late... or not??
Take Care
Much Love
Lex Sabre xoxo

IN THE END

I'm the textbook definition of a rebel
I see the crumble over left and I've got go right
I'm always in some trouble
To me life ain't fun unless you're in a good fight

So the more you're good to me
The more I try to get you to leave

All my life I've made excuses
Pushing you away, saying that you're not for me
All my life...
I tried everything
In the end it was you
In the end, in the end it was you

All I wanna do is have a good time
Let the beat go through me and just take me away
You've been trying to get with me for a while
And I've been telling you to save that for another day

So the more you're good to me
The more I try to get you to leave

All my life I've made excuses
Pushing you away, saying that you're not for me
All my life...
I tried everything

In the end it was you
In the end, in the end it was you

No no no
I never would've thought
You'd be the one
That I'd be with in the end
...
I never would've dreamd
That you and me
Were be together in the end

All my life I've made excuses
Pushing you away, saying that you're not for me
All my life...
I tried everything
In the end it was you
In the end, in the end it was you

All my life I've made excuses
Pushing you away, saying that you're not for me
All my life...
I tried everything
In the end it was you
In the end, in the end it was you

A BIG THANK YOU TO BRANDON BAKER

2008-12-26T01:30:14Z

SO I WANT TO TAKE THE CHANCE TO THANK BRANDON BAKER FOR APPARENTLY "FINDING" MY CAMERA OR HAVING SOME HOW... HOW YOU ASK I DON'T KNOW BUT HE HAD IT SINCE HALLOWEEN WHEN I THOUGHT I HAD LOST IT!! HOW CRAZY IS THAT! HE HAD COME UP TO ME AT CHI CHI'S BIRTHDAY PARTY AT HERE LOUNGE LETTING ME KNOW THAT HE HAS MY CAMERA! I WAS THRILLED TO HEAR I DIDN'T LOSE MY CAMERA!! SO YES THIS BLOG IS TO YOU BRANDON BAKER THANK YOU FOR FINDING MY CAMERA AND NOT SELLING IT ON E-BAY!!! LOL
MUCH LOVE
LEX SABRE XOXO

P.S. Sorry Brandon for posting this pix I couldnt find one of you and I but I will find one soon lol

The Cockpit... What is it?

2008-12-26T01:14:47Z

So as the title states... Lately Josh Griffin and I have been on a kick on quoting certain lings from certain movies such as; Airplane, Romy and Michelles High School Reunion and others I think Scary Movie LOL. The more recent one is Airplane! And for those who have seen Airplane remember how funny it is LOL. Here are some clips from the movie that are my favorites.